You try to live life like everyone else.
You donât want to be a burden or seen as a âvictimâ Even though you are a true victim of abuse.
You just want to feel normal
But then out of nowhere, youâre standing in a crowd of smiling strangers
And a flash of a bad memory hits you
And suddenly thereâs no escape.
Youâre stuck in a moment only you can see.
In a room full of people who have no idea what youâve been through or what your seeing.
Even speaking feels impossible but donât drop that smile because they will wonder.
How do you explain a pain so deep it would make most people uncomfortable. A truth so heavy theyâd avoid it?
Guess what?
Every single day you wake up and do life, you are winning.
You are winning a battle the world will never understand . Even if they tried. And most people donât want to.
I know it feels lonely.
I know you feel lost and unheard.
I know it feels like justice is a joke
And understanding from society is impossible.
But still, youâre doing it.
You are surviving something most people never could.
Youâre fighting a battle that shows up every single day
And youâre doing it without applause
Without always having support
And often with no one even knowing what you have been through
And are still going through.
God does. And God is there
Yet sometimes it still feels like youâre walking through it alone.
And yet, you keep going.
You show up. You breathe.
You carry things no one sees. That makes you strong. That makes you different.
And I believe with everything in me that God is going to turn what was meant to destroy you into something powerful.
If I canât change what happened to me , please God, use it for someone else.
What tried to break you will become the reason someone else finds their strength. What tried to silence you will be the thing that sets someone else free.
You didnât deserve what happened.
But you do deserve peace.
And itâs coming.
Because somewhere out there, the sirens are still making noise
And this next part is a poem for every survivor still waiting to be heard and rescued:
Sirens
Late at night, I hear the sound of sirens.
Where are they going?
Are they gonna arrest the man who hurt her ? Any girl they rescue makes my heart lighter, for sure.
The hope she must have felt when the bright lights came. Thatâs for you, girl. They even know your name.
Theyâre banging on his door and now you donât gotta worry or sleep in fear anymore.
And though your pain wonât disappear tonight Thereâs victory knowing someone fought for your right.
A tear rolls down my cheek, As I sit here and think, reflect. Not to steal your moment, Not to redirect
But deep inside a thought I canât dismiss, it hit me , I wish they had shown up for me like this.
Forgive me , But now Iâm just trying to speak I remember when he tried to kill me and I couldnât even breathe.
Damn, But now heâs out there walking free, and worse, Heâs even living right next to me.
This feels unfair , So I shouted to the streets, But silence in the air. No one can hear.
What Iâve endured is one of peoples worst fear But does anyone really care? I mean itâs my problem, not theirs.
Standing still, Shouting loud But not saying a word. I wish it was my turn for the sirens to be heard.
I wish my heroes would come and take him away. And even though nightmares and pain will forever stay, I just wanted, once in this lifetime To hear someone say:
Youâre gonna be okay.
And Iâd hear the sirens
As they would take him far away.
Written by -KKwisdumbs
UNTIL your sirens come, be your own.
Youâre gonna be okay.
Donât give up.
Keep going.
Youâre doing what most couldnât.
And Iâm proud of you.
-KKwisdumbs
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